Saint Gianna's feast day

36 degrees celcius. Summer heat is getting worse. Mike had nosebleed moments again while taking a shower 2 days ago. And I did not freak out because since April started i was just waiting for it to happen. And I must say this is better than last summer where he was on medical leave because he was ill last summer. Anyway, day6 of duphaston. Im mostly home due to the intense heat. As if summer is mad. It's even harder when you are on medication because it makes your head ache, makes your muscles cramp and tummy aches. But all for you Carlisle. Just to have you, that one miracle I am praying for. Today is the feast day of Saint Gianna, happy feast day! when im bored i usually just read testimonies from a website dedicated for her. I could not think of any other first name aside from Gianna be ause as promised, Gianna will be the name of my first daughter. I hope my pregnancy this year will be a safe one. Yes I am mightly claiming it already that I have deep faith I will get pregnant this year and definitely give birth next year. Now is a great time. Next year Carlisle or Gianna, you will be welcomed by a loving family.

Saint Gianna and Babyshower

Just some random thoughts not specifically for you Lailail. Last Saturday night I was thinking about Saint Gianna because it is nearing her feast day when I was channel surfing. I hardly go up to EWTN but somehow that night i just kept on searching channels until i saw Saint Gianna"s life story. Ironic lang diba? (Summer now and it's gonna rain hard here as i type). I hope saint gianna remembers my prayers too. I once touched her gloves which is considered a second hand relic.

Yesterday we just went to mass at 8:30 and stayed here at home until late afternoon. We went to a relative"s baby shower. I was thinking of how pretty your own baby shower will be and more fun and lots of games! It will be here at home in Binan and ill ask some people to prepare a simple meal or better like Ate Mia's bring your own food. Potluck is better. Your room will be upstairs. Our Lego room will be you room since it is the cleanest. I think you will hardly stay in your own room anyway. Im on my second day to duphaston anak. May God and all the saints in heaven continue to guide Dra Morin as she treats me in this difficult journey once again.

It takes 27 days to Make It a Habit

it takes 27 days to make it a habit. yestarday mikee star and i went walking/ jogging arund nuvali. a total of 45 minutes. got tired immidiately and went to slip early. today day 2 i was all by myself so i asked star to join me and ha was panting so hard i had to stop. 25 more days to go before i makeit a habit. So help me God. I can only do it at night because if i wake up to early, what shall i do?

April 13

dear dada,

you always know how to comfort me in times of sadness:) thank you! i was a bit upset with the usual negative result. i don't know why until now there are times being sad seems fresh even if i should and must be used to some constant things i have no control. you seem to protect me from returning into depression. you may not be aware but i feel that way.

thank you for healers

hi lailail:) Yesterday, sister EMMA who is a healer went to visit the school. I personally thank God for healers. I was also introduced to Father Ferdinand who is said to be a healing priest also. I felt his presence or the Lord's presence when he touched Dada Mikee and me. Whatever it was, I believe. I thank God for sending Father Suarez, sister Emma and all the healers in this world.

Dada's bday is 2 days from now. I wish next year when he turns 30 we have you na! Oh how much i miss you. I cannot explain anak even up to this day i long for you. Hindi ko alam ano gagawin sayo if girl ka. Because we always dreamed, imagined and loathed for a baby boy. So this blog might be useless if girl ka, lol:)

Dear March

Dearest Carlisle,

How can I miss someone like you when I haven't been around you? Maybe Mama is just frustrated I am still not even close in having you, that Mommy is still not pregnant. So if you can hear me Carlisle, please help Mommy pray ok? I always imagine you in Lucky Me's commercial when i hear the little boy say "sasabihin ko sa mommy ko ang ganda ganda mo:) "

Anyway, last March 21 (three months to go dada and I will be 6 months married) we went to see St Clare's Relic and heard mass. She is one of the Patron Saint in Obando, Bulacan. I was wondering if Mama will dance this year again. Dada cannot anak. He is having bad symptoms again but manageable.

So I decided to try the GM diet for a week again. I'm mostly home so I guess one week of sacrifice during this lent is fine.

Another thing is Dada's birthday is soon! We Don't have money (again) so maybe a simple meal is fine no parties no hotel no usual stuff on birthdays.

If I could have one wish, that is for me to have the discipline to take good care of myself and hopefully make my generative faculties fertile and working.

Star is getting fat too. I dont know why :)

mommy is sick

dear lailail mommy is sick since feb 16 and i feel sorry for dada bec we dont have money nagalaw na savings ni mama lhat money ni dada napunta lang sa mga check up ko tuloy tuloy lang gastos anak buti wla kpa kundi bibigay na si mama sa depression. ilang beses ko naisip malala ang sakit ko and im dying. :( i miss sasha. star is beside me. kinailangan ni mama magslip sa alabang si dada naiwan sa binan. ill talk to you soon slip nako