my Dearest future son, (Gianna for a daughter),I'm currently in United Kingdom to visit your uncle's family. I just wanted to share this photo taken at Town Center of St Leonards on sea, East Sussex in Britain. For the name Gianna, I visited once a parish in PA, USA around 2009 December. But for you Carlisle how I wish i could bring you to an island named after you:) Daddy is not with me, he is back in Alabang and I miss him so much. I have a plan next year to focus only on you. I'm turning 28 in 6 days! Here in London my dear son. I just wish you were already with us. I now envy someone with her pregnancy. I pray to God to open my womb as what i read in the bible. You know what baby? you'll be the best. For i prayed hard for you. You will be a smart boy im sure and i will be very proud of you. Daddy will truly love you (but i think he will spoil you to death even if he wont admit it now.) Your baptism will be great, i dont think it will be a simple one. I wish we have the money after imagining all the medication i need to take while youre still in my womb. all the ultrasounds, all the bloodworks. I need to prepare for that. Getting pregnant is one thing, the whole 9 months is another story. Thats why I was alloting next year to be physically fit for you so i wont undergo all those agony just to deliver you safely. If i become protective of you it is because it took so many years to have you. I hope and pray to God daddy lives until you get married. He's been sick most of the time. I will keep you secret till i reach 4 months in my pregnancy. If possible, i will keep it a secret until I'm near birth. I will choose a good doctor for you. I love you baby.
