Aug 8 &30

Dear babies,

Its been a while since I last posted an update. Im sorry its been a roller coaster ride. I will forever hold on To those memories. Later will be my 11th wek check up, Wednesday. Its been raining cats and dogs the past few weeks and I had another scare when I bled last Saturday. I felt cramping the whole day and I had spotting with bright red when I woke up. Maybe you cannot tolerate without your duvadilan. Im afraid we are being dependent on that medicine too much. But what can I do? Your safety is the most important thing in the world for us. When I am more ready I will share more details. Keep safe my twins. I am hoping to get another glimpse of your movements later. love you

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dear babies,

how are you? last tues we went to PGh for apas test and it was not a pleasant experience. We were hungry due to fasting and oh my it smells bad there. We will know the results by tom. Hoping it is negative so we will all have peace of mind and less complication. 

Im sorry if we cannot eat enough most of the time. Nagtitipid kasi tayo anak and I feel guilty because mama is taking most of our finances due to medication i need to keep you all safe. Dada is doing his best and a good job in providing for all our needs. We love you and you are our outmost priority. So please bear with mommy and daddy. We are lucky enough to have a home, helpers to manage the house and a car to bring us to places we need to go to. We should always thank papa Jesus for giving us all the blessings most especially for keeping you safe. 

Last time i had my scan, Carlisle changed position 3 times while you Zac burried your head when Dra was trying to measure you. Shy baby. Tomorrow Im guessing you are 16 weeks. Dada will hear mass at 5 am but mama has to stay home so we can rest. I dont want to jeopardize your safety by insisting on going to mass there because last time there was flood. Also Its Sasha's death anniversary tom, 3 years has passed and i had a dream about her last night. Kuya Star on theother hand will be sad because yaya Eden will soon leave us, she needs to go back to Bicol her hometown. We all love you babies. We are excited to see you by Jan next year and this Christmas will be a merry one for me and Dada so excited to see you!

14 weeks and 5 days

I have a theory darling you got dada's genes. :) you are big babies! It was our first time to have your scan at Asian Hospital. You were shy. Carlisle you turned your back when we were trying to get your picture and Zac, you burried your head down and wouldnt face us. Maybe you were hungry and irritable or just simply shy.

You guys are 13 weeks

DEar babies,

i miss wirting. i have some drafts i havent published yet. its been an emotional roller coaster for me and dada and im so tamad to write. i have been placed on bedrest since june 21 probably almost 2 months ago and its been hard. We watched bourne legacy:) im not too afraid now to go out because im not actively bleeding my last spotting was at 9 and 10 weeks.

your tita joni and ate julia went to visit you yesterday and you were both behave because we kept on telling you days before that if you wont behave, we will not eat at Italianis. And i just felt bad that morning because i threw up everything i ate. but the rest of the day you were fine until i woke up in the middle of the night with a strange colds and i had to wake up. Kuya anton is now sick due to dengue he has been hospitalized since last sunday hope he gets well soon tom and will be discharged.

Like i said, im too tired to write my thoughts. I just want you to behave please.