left ovary: 21.6mm right ovay: 15mm

Dear Carlisle,

You've grown bigger:) I thank the Lord for listening to my hearts desire. Sana anak tuloy tuloy na:) Also my endometrial appearance is: triminar with intact subendometrial halo and its thickness is 9mm which is minimum 8mm. Please cooperate with dada's sperms ok? :) I am excited to see you. June 18 will be my pregnancy test day and June 20 will be my next check up with Dra. Morin. Really hoping and praying for the best. I love you! Dada said: Be good little one. Listen to mama and dada and make us proud anak.

mommy

garden walk

dear carlisle, i hope its you! yesterday i went to see dra morin for my follicle monitoring. we saw in my left ovary 16mm follicle (may 25,  12) two days ago it was 12mm. there is also in my right two ovaries measuring  12mm and 10mm. i am hopefully with this cycle maybe just wishing and praying?  this morning i woke up at 7 which is very unusual for me. i went in the garden at the back, yesterday happy, my friend/ yoga instructor advised me yesterday its good to step on grass as you walk. i also read it somewhere that it helps you connect with mother earth. so i gave it a try. after that dada and i ate a healthy breakfast with bread, basil, goats cheese, tomatoes and mozzarella.  im trying everything to put on balance. im trying my best not to get stressed. yoga, diet, massage plus a lot of pleading just to have you with God. everything is just falling in its right place. your dada loves the meals. he is hesitant in having a vacation or take some time off. but i insist!  im praying there is a mature egg darling. please be cooperative and dont ket mommy have injections anymore. i just want it natural and timed intercourse. i love you carlisle or gianna. 

may 15 2009

I am beginning to get impatient. Everyone who is TTC (Trying to Conceive) can relate for sure. April 19 '09 was my very first IUI. It surprised me Gonal F worked this time but I had to inject for 6 times with 75IU. Clomid did not work the last time so I took a different drug which is way more expensive (Like 3x more)! Doctor J. said I am one of few patients with PCOS who cannot (or should I say doesn't?) respond to medications to well. He's a well known Reproductive Endocrinologist in the country by the way. I'm not surprised by his statement because I hear that a lot from my previous OB's.

My infertility journey started back in early 2007. I got married June of 2006 and easily got pregnant but had a miscarriage. Missed Abortion is how they described it. Oh such a nightmare. Goood thing I married young. I never thought I will encounter and deal with bigger problems. It was a year later when I was diagnosed with PCOs. I never had it before. I was closely monitored. Monthly blood exams, weekly tvu's, regular check ups. I gave up my job so just I can relax and focus. Moving forward, I was only 23 then, so Doctors did not pay much attention on me when I always complained that I wanted to have a baby. "You're too young...you still have time..." Finally after two years, Dr. J was much more cooperative. He said we can do it on your own , he'll just help us during the stimulation of the eggs. I insisted NO Way, I woukld rather pay for an IUI even if it is way to expensive compared to natural. We spent around $1,000 on our own if we were to convert to PHP. Good thing I insisted because on the day of sperm collection, we had the min requirement of sperm, just good enough to say everything will be just fine. With hubby's history, he never had problems with his SA (sperm Analysis). Only during that time, how ironic can it get? I am not much hopeful now beacuse the lining of my endometrium is too thin, so I was given Duphaston for 10 days (2x a day) right after IUI.

Hopefully after years of waiting, this year will be a bright one. More stories to come this week, stay tuned and thanks for reading!
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this was the time i was so frustrated, aggressive and so lost with all the work ups

Dear Cohen meals: let us help each other. Mike lost 20kilos before while i prepared all his meals. It's so similar to you! Only his dietician was stricter! I will fight this battle. (you and yoga plus writing will be my soldiers) May God guide me and my very beautiful and kind doctor, Dra. Morin while on treatment.

I cannot believe this special day for me. Today is my day 13 and i had an ultrasound which measures 14 and 12mm with only clomid! Before kasi nakaka 3x a day injection na ako ng gonal-f a day then mga 2-3 days yun. And i lost 2 kilos! since May 11 so its been 13 days 2 kilos is good! Im into cohen diet now together with mikee. Adjustment stage nga lang pero with the results namanits so promising so might as well continue eating the right kind of food. I'm still in disbelief with this good news. but not too good exactly since my endometrium is thin so dra prescribed me Progynova. I also asked Dra to inject me gonal f nadin para hindi masayang ang cycle follow up ko kasi sa friday. Not so good news kasi Mike is sick. Nanghihina siya he is dead tired. so he needs to rest. Keeping my fingers crossed. 

bridge post

im into yoga now however im dizzy as i type so just not to forget about blogging it i had to type something.

May 7, 2012

On this day of your life, Rose, we believe God wants you to know ... that it's time you cleansed yourself with laughter and with tears.

Let tears take out all the agony that is hidden inside you, and let laughter ignite your contagious joy.

 

Hi Carlisle:) This is a soso day, had a not so good feeling so I just slept in the afternoon. There's a little drama last friday so Sunday Dada and I watched the Avengers and it's so good. The theater is still full good thing we booked in advance. (Dont worry the drama is not between us). Your Tita Mary has a new dog Barney and compared to star when he was a puppy, Barney is naughty and aggressive.

I'll write later I'm trying to watch a movie.