Goodbye 2012

Goodbye 2012!

It's been a good year for me and my husband Mike. Although at the first quarter of the year, I was sick with bad cough and bad allergies. The best part was deciding to go back to Dra. Morin and she helped me get pregnant. June was our special month because we did get pregnant! 

Christmas Time

Merry Christmas My Twins!

carlyle and gianna,

Merry Christmas darling babies! Oh words cannot express how much dada and I love you both! Your first gifts are from Owa and Owo, teddy bears! I will upload pictures once I use the laptop:) 

It has been a tradition that our family stays in a hotel for Christmas Eve (Kuya Star is always left alone in the house) And this  year same as last year we are staying at Manila Peninsula Hotel in Makati City. We had dinner buffet around 8:30 pm and instead of going to mass tonight at 10 pm we just waited for midnight to come. 

Next year this time around you are around 11 months and for sure you will be handful:) Ive been awake for one hour because you guys got hungry bec mama just ate a little for dinner. I will sleep now its 3:15am goodnight my twins

30 Weeks and Counting

Dearest Carlisle and Gianna,

I had written a blog about your gender prior to this one but I haven't posted it yet. Anyway, we are now 30 weeks from yesterday. and as usual, things got a little dramatic when I texted Dra De Jesus that i was having contractions and we were ordered to have Non Stress Test for both of you. So you see, Mommy is a little worried you will be out soon and Daddy Mikee panicked. 

Its not a great experience after all because two nights ago, Dec 6 it was lola Evie's birthday so we ate at King Bee. That same night, I was in pain i couldn't move. I barely can walk and Daddy had to help me. Even at night I had to ask daddy to help me get up. Daddy loves us so much we dont want you out yet because it will be harder for everyone. We want what is best for you so If I had to stay in bed for 6 weeks I will do it. 

We love you both. Hang in there and pls cooperate. 

May 3, 2008 diary

To My future first born,

As I write to you my first journal entry let me emphasize how precious you are to me. I have so many stories to share with you. i dont even knoew where to start, on which chapter i may say. Life suffering from infertility is shattering. There are times that i want to give up for there are lonely days. I am still learning. I am just 24 and i have suffered from a painful miscarriage. I have been to several doctors, several treatments...so far syempre wala padin result. but I am still hoping with the grace of God that the Lord will give me enough strenght and patience. I am just being sentimental because my journey has been long (long enough for me).

Anyway, your father Mike had his first gym visit today. (its for your daddy too he suffered from TIA) In just a few days your dad will be exactly a year afetr suffering from this illness. But he has lost a lot of weight. Maybe you can see naman sa pictures.

About me today, I have a very heavy period which made me domesticated today. I forgot to tell you that I am goig back to work. It was last December 5,2006 when i last worked. I am so opften bored with my life just waiting for the day to see you. If you will ask me someday what I do everyday here's my answer. I eat (which made me heavier!), I sleep often, I surf the net but I am not techie, I read a lot and do the same old stuff. "Kawawa naman ako" I usually say that kaya good for me ill be back sq corporate world. I just hope this time I will be able to stay long enough para magka maternity benefits.

Here are some names I'd like you to have. Miguel Lorenzo (if twins +) Gabriel Angelo. If girl naman nickename Zia name Joanne Zia. It means light in arabic.

x'cess: Ate sasa is sleeping half of the time I was writing. I hope maabutan mo si ate.

Our letter to dada

Dear Dada, 

 I love you so much even if i don't tell you often. I am blessed to have you as my partner in life. You are always there to support me. Even if we weren't married yet you supported me and maybe you dont remember things as much  as i do. You bought me pants and pink blouse and a green one for my first job at convergys. You subscribed real living for me even  if we both know I am not a practicing designer. You used to do my homework when i had no computer or my internet was down. Maybe you forgot those already im pretty sure but those little things made me fall in love with you. 

Now that we are expecting two babies, I know you will be the best father for them. I just hope you would not spoil them. dada mahirap man at magastos basta magkakasama tayo apat at healthy tayong lahat ok na sa akin. I dont want branded items for our kids i just want what is essential for them. Do not stress yourself before they arrive lets just enjoy our remaining days together just the two of us because sure ako major adjustment  pagdating nila. I will expect a reply from you.

Pre Term Labor experience

Our first official hospitalization happened around 9:45 pm at Asian hospital September 8 2012. Mommy knew something was up when i was having contractions during the day. I tried to sleep on it. It was a Saturday so I even begged daddy, can we not go home please? He insisted for us to go home to Alabang. We went dirst to the shop and then a delivery to Lola Tess at Ayala and I think that made things worse be ause when We were on our way home, I was having pain already in my buttocks. Arriving home, yaya Eden was already at her province so daddy and I were alone. When grandparents came, Dada had fever already:( Poor dady! I was taking care of him when I peed and saw blood in my tissue after wiping. I did not freak outp as much because I saw brown blood. Brown means old blood so I wasnt that scared. I had to text Ninang Maan's mom so we can have peace of mind when she instructed me to go to to Asian because I may have pre term labor, oh that scared me:( I dont want you early yet! Too early because you will never have a chance of survival at this stage. Dada was so guilty because I was scolding him saying I told you I was not feeling well which I was not faking. Something could have happened and I wouldnt forget how much panic it hit us that you were both in danger. 

But I remember funny things:) Carlisle you like to play with dopler machines! Each time a nurse tried to catch you and get your pulse rate, you were so ON in playing hide and seek! Which Zachary will usually just cooperate even on ultrasounds:) You showed your back and spine Carlisle while Zac i had to admit I couldnt figure out your face! All because you were lying on your placenta baby:) I thought it was part of your face. Zac you are so handsome! you showed yournlittle face already:) Pretty boy:) 

I am just glad and thankful to the Lord that Dada is getting better and you are just ok. The pain has stopped last night. It was just the nasty IV insertion that bothered me all the while. I learned my lesson not to push my pupu even if it was bothering me:( I did not sleep while we were at Genesis, the Icu of pregnant moms at Asian. Dada had to leave us at 5am because his fever was high and it was terribly cold there so he could not rest as well. Mommy was scared to be all alone but managed because the nurses there are all friendly:)

Aug 8 &30

Dear babies,

Its been a while since I last posted an update. Im sorry its been a roller coaster ride. I will forever hold on To those memories. Later will be my 11th wek check up, Wednesday. Its been raining cats and dogs the past few weeks and I had another scare when I bled last Saturday. I felt cramping the whole day and I had spotting with bright red when I woke up. Maybe you cannot tolerate without your duvadilan. Im afraid we are being dependent on that medicine too much. But what can I do? Your safety is the most important thing in the world for us. When I am more ready I will share more details. Keep safe my twins. I am hoping to get another glimpse of your movements later. love you

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dear babies,

how are you? last tues we went to PGh for apas test and it was not a pleasant experience. We were hungry due to fasting and oh my it smells bad there. We will know the results by tom. Hoping it is negative so we will all have peace of mind and less complication. 

Im sorry if we cannot eat enough most of the time. Nagtitipid kasi tayo anak and I feel guilty because mama is taking most of our finances due to medication i need to keep you all safe. Dada is doing his best and a good job in providing for all our needs. We love you and you are our outmost priority. So please bear with mommy and daddy. We are lucky enough to have a home, helpers to manage the house and a car to bring us to places we need to go to. We should always thank papa Jesus for giving us all the blessings most especially for keeping you safe. 

Last time i had my scan, Carlisle changed position 3 times while you Zac burried your head when Dra was trying to measure you. Shy baby. Tomorrow Im guessing you are 16 weeks. Dada will hear mass at 5 am but mama has to stay home so we can rest. I dont want to jeopardize your safety by insisting on going to mass there because last time there was flood. Also Its Sasha's death anniversary tom, 3 years has passed and i had a dream about her last night. Kuya Star on theother hand will be sad because yaya Eden will soon leave us, she needs to go back to Bicol her hometown. We all love you babies. We are excited to see you by Jan next year and this Christmas will be a merry one for me and Dada so excited to see you!